"When sadness was an ocean, you taught me how to swim."

I never thought that I'd have the time to blog, at least until the exams are over in about two weeks time, but here I am, comforted by the fact the Nicolette provided me - Allied Conferences aren't tested for History. So, because I have an entire less handout to memorize, I figured I can squeeze out half an hour or so to blog, before I am sucked in by my life again - National day slides to do, final loose ends to tighten, and all my subjects' contents.

Lately, life has fallen into familiar & comfortable, albeit tiring and draining, cycle. I wake up in the morning, go through the day's classes - some of which in unrivaled enthusiasm and interest, others just help me aid in my catching up on lost sleep - groan at how they're piling up on the homework. But I can never entirely hate lessons, sitting next to Keren, who is one of nicest and sweetest and most amusing girls I've ever met, to having recess with the BFFLs, and going insane sometimes, or just sitting in class and talking.

Then comes the second part of the day, staying back in school for all sorts of various reasons, and of late, for National Day. I can't say that I'm the most patriotic person, and I can't say that this task given to me, to head the planning committee, has drained me of a lot of time and energy, but yet at the same time, I love doing this, I love being busy and preoccupied, and on top of all of that, I love the people that I have spent so many afternoons with the past three weeks after school. Tessa, Bev, Berenice, Kristin, Lisa. You guys are the most amazing people to work with, from WALKING INTO THE HALL LIKABOSS, to laughing at MLGIs, to stressing over deadlines, complaining and whining about how hungry and cold we are like full-fledged hobos, running all over school and having countless meetings outside the staffroom in the morning, and just laughing a lot sometimes. You guys, I know we're going to do such a good job on Monday. And I can't ask for better people to spend my afternoons with.

When I get home, I face my pile of things to do, things to be accomplished, work to be done, things to memorise. Sometimes it gets me down, but I think I have learnt to take heart, to know that this too shall pass and I am studying for God, and because I need to and I want to. So I spend my evening and night with my books and notes, primarily. Also, I can never live without my daily conversations with my sister about anything under the sun, how I can complain to her about school and talk about the most random things, and how you always always never fail to cheer me up. All I can say is thank you for being here, and I love you to bits.

And when my eyes are wide open from the time of the night, but my head is heavy and I can't think straight, I know it is time to sleep. Usually, this is at about 12.30. And all I can do is end the day with God and hope that 5 hours is enough to get me through.

So that's been life for the past 3 weeks or so :-) Again, comfortable, familiar, routine. But tiring, exhausting and life-sucking.

Everything comes down to Monday. National Day concert. I hope everyone's looking forward to it because I sure am, and its going to be really fun :-) 3 weeks of hard work, stress, slides, rehearsals, proposal deadlines, minutes, all to those two hours. Also, SL meeting right after celebrations. :-)

Its been a busy term - but it flew by and before we know it, we're going to be Sec 4, and that thought simply scares me. I don't think I want to be Sec 4. I don't think I can take O Levels next year. But until then, like my sister always says, take it a thing at a time. She's never wrong about such things.

To be in the company of such beautiful girls, you all are wonderful :-)


Also, I must really get myself a polaroid camera.

"If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking."
With that, I commit the next two weeks to God. Exams are coming up, and the project we've been working so hard on is on Monday, and I guess all we can do is to give it our best, and leave the rest to God, yes? :-) I believe so, and the next two weeks is His.

Till commons are over, and I'm back again. This feels really nice :-) Back to my slides.
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