Hello,

This is my second post today! So basically, where I left off was Bio, and we started on Transport in humans, aka, blood, blood vessels. The chapter I had been itching for us to cover on since the year started, I really do love blood. (I mean this both in a gory and an educational way) Also, I love bio because we get to learn all these big terms and big words that will make me sound smart (;

Also, during recess, we saw the Sec 4s going about during their Longest Day, and we were sitting and eating and being well aware that next year, that would be us. I reflected to myself a bit about being in MG, on a whole. I know that should I have not put MG in my Secondary School choices, because it wasn't intended to be there previously, I would not have met so so many people that have made my life. I would have turned out rather differently. In a sense, I would not have been the me I am very happy with now.

We all promptly agreed that we would bawl our eyes out next year during Longest Day for the past four years that have sped by. I can't believe we're nearly done with Sec 3.

Stayed back for Teachers Day rehearsals. The SLs met at the trellis, and we proceeded to teach the people who weren't present on Monday the dance moves at the steps of the quadrangle next to the trellis, and the adjoining grass patch, and had such a good time in general laughing at each other/ourselves. SLs, you guys really make my day all the time, I love all of you :3

Went up for our rehearsals, hahahaha, it was really really funny. LAWL the gong. AGAIN YOU GUYS ARE THE BESTTTTT :') Really can't wait to perform tomorrow, its going to be so much fun, I just hope I don't burst out laughing halfway through.

After, went to 3G to hobo around with Cheryl for a bit, and then went back to class to do up Mrs Lau's hugeass vanguard-teachers'-day-card-thing, and write on laoshi's (note BFFLs, they are lying under my table in my class) and then left for home (; Got home, bathed, changed and proceeded to do Tday presents! I am just about done with Mrs Lau's and that took me about 2 hours HAHAHA. After I blog this, I am going to do more presents and watch glee simultaneously, oh do I love glee! (:

Tomorrow will be a good day, I can just feel it. The number 1 thing I will need to bring (besides my presents) is my camera. I am going to take so many photos. Of things. And people (especially Mrs Lau HAHAHA gonna look preeddyy tomorrow heh) And like my BFFLs of course. I really cannot wait tomorrow is going to be such a good day. I will go to school, go to SAPS, go for tuition, come home, upload photos, blog, and then finally start studying on Friday (:

The rest of this week will be a good week.
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Hello,

We are in the lab now for English, and as usual I have done nothing productive, nothing at all. It is fun not doing anything productive when we are in the lab for english, although I'm supposed to be working on some reflections that have been long overdue since the elearning days about a week or so ago.

It is very lovely now, I am blocking out the chatters from my classmates with Adele's singing courtesy of a youtube video :-) HAHAHA they make too much noise sometimes, but they add on to the atmosphere. On the other hand, I love Adele I think she is simply wonderful. :-) My dad bought 21 a few weeks back, and I have yet to sync the songs into my phone, but I shall soon!

Today is gearing up to be an extremely eventful day. this morning, we had History, and Chinese (I think I remembered most of my tingxie words, hopefully I don't fail/fail so terribly this time round. I really did learn it.), and we had Chem. I could not understand what she was talking about. Something about the displacement of metals, I have no idea. Initially, she didn't even explain to us what displacement reaction meant.

Today, we also received our progress reports. I am unsatisfied, with 4A1s, 1A2, 2B3s, and 2 C5s. I'm so proud of my Chem though, and my physics, 0.0% and 6.1% scores higher respectively (: My languages are extremely disappointing though, what with my terrible mess of chinese and my disgusting english score. I have to work harder.

We had Recess as well, I had a pack of oreos, bak chor mee and sucking jelly! HAHAHA. I am so full now. I had terrible cramps this morning through the morning lessons, but it has died down a little after eating recess so that's good! We have bio left, and then the second half of my day - consisting of Teachers' day concert's full dress rehearsal, which i am extremely excited for. Also, I'm staying back with Nicole to work on our teachers day gifts, at least until she has to go for her campfire prep.

Megan told me about the Hunger games, it sounds really interesting so she's lending it to me after EOYs hehe (; The headphones in school are extremely uncomfortable. I have an entire list of things to do after EOYs, but for now I should just concentrate on studying. I am really looking forward to Teachers' day (;

Have a good day x

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Hello friends

I sincerely hope the long weekend have been good for all of you! So, how I spent the past three or four days or so. I've been trying to catch up on work, and I've started studying for the EOYs. The sense of urgency had hit me shortly after the third bout of commons came to pass, added to the pure wanting to do well for what this entire year's learning will all come down to.

Let's see. Sunday, I spent the entire day either at tuition or at home studying. And I watched 2 episodes of the Glee project at night with my brother and working on my teachers' day gifts (;

Monday, went back to school for teachers' day rehearsals! Met the rest of the SLs at the trellis, and after waiting for most of them to arrive, Bern and Bev showed us the moved they choreoed and we all tried it out! HAHAHAHAH couldn't stop laughing the first time we tried it. Went up to the hall, and we realised we had still much to prepare for our item. So we broke up into 2 groups to save time, and so we pieced together our item with 2 dances where we're doing it as one big group, and 2 dances where we do it in our split-up-groups. Had lots and lots of fun, but it was so tiring at the same time.

We danced for about three hours straight, practicing our 'slick moves' HAHAHA and I really can't wait for Teachers' Day (; The entire program seems really good on the whole, and I really can't wait to perform for teachers' day :-)! I can't wait for teachers' day on a whole! After all that dancing, went to KAP to pig out with Gracey darling, where we talked and devised an evil plot HAHAHHA.

Got home, bathed, and started texting my sister and rolling around in bed. HAHAHA then got started on work! :-) Studied till I went to bed, so I was quite proud of myself for that :-) Did Chem, History, Bio, Physics, yay!

Today, I woke up at 8. And I did Chem + Math in the morning. And after, History + Tingxie + Bio in the afternoon. And physics + tingxie just now. Devised myself a productivity meter (which is a true measure of my nerd so I only showed my sister HAHAHAHA) All in all its been a really productive four days, I'm so glad I spent this long weekend productively. Also, I'm really happy because tomorrow and Thursday, I'm going to give myself a break because of the teachers day prep/actual teachers' day festivities HAHAHA. I have sort of an uncontained excitement for Tday, the one I usually get every year, because its always so so fun in MG and I'm going visiting! I miss my idiots so much HAHAHA.

Its these small days that make me so happy, the fact that I have studied sufficiently, the fact that they set aside Thursday/Friday for us to properly appreciate (most) of our teachers, the fact that the SLs always make my day, or the fact that I have the sweetest older sister in the world. Although I don't exactly feel like going back to school tomorrow, I'll get to see my friends, whom I haven't seen in a while due to the long weekend.

Goodnight friends (;
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Hello friends,

The past week has been really really tiring, what with all our commons having ended and receiving all our results, with all the confusion, conflicts stemmed from small, subtle incidents, and although Common Test 3 has drawn to a close not too long ago, it marks the beginning of an arduous following 6+ weeks of studying for EOYs, and subsequently, Sec 4.

I can't say I'm all too pleased with my results, I'm entirely not satisfied with my history and my bio, but I must thank God anyway, having such a short time frame to complete all my work and study and cram all that disastrous information into my head, that I have done alright in the end, an average of 75.2%, and I can only hope for the best for EOYs, I have to get as intense as I was in Sec 2 to do well.

Last night I dreamt that I failed all my Higher Chinese tests and that they told me I had to drop Higher Chinese. I don't know, that was admittedly quite a random dream, but even though Chinese seems of least importance to me, I have the constant fear that I will not be able to do my Higher Chinese Os and subsequently not get my 2 points off and subsequently not being able to get into Hwach. Well. I should really work harder!

This week has been a crazy mess, and getting little headahces from lack of sleep and huge headaches from nagging problems, from all the angst and worrying over my EE rooming, and the stress of having to do well. Thank God I survived this week in the end, and that the following week that we are entering has a grand total of 1 and half days of school, which really gives me the time to catch up my revision for EOYs, and time to spend as a lazy person under house arrest. Thank God for strength! Thank God for my sister as well, for all the times I rant to her about anything and everything that has happened, for listening to me all the way and always being entirely the sweetest person on earth, I love you and I would never be able to survive without her (':

The next week is Teachers' Day and I need to start thinking of suitable presents to express my gratitude towards my teachers. I think I'm going to give less teachers this year in comparison. Oh well I don't know so far I think I only have about 6 in mind :S Hehehehe. WE SHALL SEE

time to go through my physics slides (:

Semi-hiatus / eventual complete hiatus until EOYs are over

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Hello friends

Going to do a survey to neutralise my mood. I like them.

What’s one thing about today that you didn’t like?
The way the split up the EE groupings, and something else.

Is there an ex you think about everyday?
-

Who is the last person that you said i love you to, besides family members?
My sister. HAHAHA ignores besides family members because. well.

Are you mad at anyone right now?
Not anymore.

Is there one thing all of your ex’s had in common?
-

What’s a compliment you recieve often?
You're so cute!
Ah.

What summer was the best of your entire lifetime?
Summer? Hmm I'm not sure we don't go by seasons here hahaha

Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships?
-

Who was the last person to comfort you when you were upset or crying?
My sister. I always go to her, luv her :'3

What would you name a baby boy if you had one?
JACOB.

Do you want to get married?
Yes! I think! haha.

What does your last recieved text say?
I'm too lazyyy to check.

If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
On my bed hahaha

Do you prefer to text or talk on the phone?
Texting's fun.

Whats the worst thing you have ever said to anyone?
I'm not sure. I try not to say nasty things?

What was the last lie that you told?
I can't remember..... HAHA.

What was your favorite walt disney movie as a child?
NEMO the cutest fish in all of fish history.

What will your last words be when you die?
I haven't thought of this hahaha.

What was the worst day of your life?
I don't think I have a worst day in my life, but I sure had bad days.

Do you know anyone that’s gotten an abortion before?
Nope!

Do you think you could forgive someone for cheating on you?
-

Who is the last person you argued with?
Well.

Who was the last person you gave your number to?
Uhmmm. Jane? HAHA.

What song are you listening to right now?
I'm listening to the radio, and the song playing now is..... Lights outside by Wakey! Wakey! Hahaha so cute

Who’s the person you fell the hardest for?
-

Why do you hate your ex?
-

Who’s the last person that gave you roses?
Keren! :-) We were folding roses and she gave her's to me :3

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
-

What if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
-

Do you have a picture of you kissing someone?
-

Are you hard to please?
In certain aspects I guess, but in general, not really unless I have OCD attacks.

Have you ever gotten back with an ex?
-

Who was the last person to comment one of your pictures?
I have no idea ehehe.

What does the 3rd text message in your inbox say?
Its from Nicole, probably, but I'm too lazy to check.

What’s a cuss word you use often?
?

Why did your last relationship end?
-

Have you learned from your past mistakes?
I guess so, in certain ways

Who’s the last guy you hugged?
I have no idea but I'm pretty sure I hugged a guy before HAHA.

Who’s the last girl you hugged?
I hug girls on a daily basis *creepy face*

Do you tend to go for older or younger when looking for someone to date?
I think older guys are better

Who’s the last guy you texted?
I don't know. Ryan Bek?

What about the last girl?
My sistaaaar.

When do you want to get married?
25? I have no idea hehe

Who was the last person to make you cry?
Hmmmm.

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Yes, but not in the all romantic and lovey way.

Do you push people away?
I don't think I do.

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
-

What is one quality that you really appreciate in a person?
Love. Like, the ability to give love.

Do you have more guy or girl friends?
Girls, I am in a girls' school lawl.

Have you ever cheated on anyone?
Nope

If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
LAWL the last person I texted is of the same gender

What does the 12th message in your inbox say?
Uhm.

Do you have any kids or want any in the future?
I do not have kids I happen to be 14 HAHA I'm not sure if I do though, we'll see (:

Do you think your pretty?
That's not a question for me to answer haha.

What did you dress up as last Halloween?
I didn't ):

What hair color do you prefer on the opposite sex?
No preference. I would like natural blond though. Hehe so cute.

What about eye color?
It doesn't really matter.

Is there anyone in your life who you won’t ever want to lose?
Yes, of course.

Are you evil?
Hmmm

Do you judge people when you first meet them?
Honestly, yes, based on their appearances.

Have you ever got caught cheating on a test?
I don't cheat (:

How old do people tell you that you look?
ELEVEN gg thanks.

Relationship between you and the last person you texted?
My sister. Best person on earth.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
UHH?

Have you ever worn an oxygen mask?
Nope! Not that I remember of!

What would make your life perfect?
Getting straight As. Getting my life straight and having people I love surround me.

Are you sarcastic?
I can be if I want to.

What song do you want to be played at your funeral?
I don't know, some really mellow song it doesn't have to be sad I guess just mellow and peaceful.

How many swear words are in the song your listening to?
ZERO.

What color was the last swimsuit you wore?
Dark blue (dark blueeee have you ever been alone in a crowded room)

Who was the last person to cause you physical harm?
VIctoria Leow OUCH LA WOMAN.

Who did you like this time last year?
-

What color do you dye your hair?
I don't dye my hair!

What did you get last Valentine’s Day?
NOPE

Did anything annoy you today?
Yes, of course.

Has anyone ever said they loved you and not meant it?
I guess some people would have. Not everyone is sincere.

Is trust an issue you have?
To a certain extent, but otherwise not really.

Have any of your family members been to jail?
Not that I know of, anyway.

Is there anyone that you feel you still need some closure with?
Yes.

Are you wearing any rings right now?
nope!

Would you kiss a smoker?
No thank you very much.

Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most in life?
I don't know who hurt me the most in my life, so I don't think I can answer this question.

Who took a picture with you last?
Jiayi.

Have you ever lied to someone about your age?
Nope! Unless there is some age-restriction thing on some website, then yes.

Who did you last send a friend request to?
I forgot, usually people add me, I don't add others hahaha.

Would you ever get a tattoo of a boyfriend/girlfriends name?
NO WAY.

Is there any drama in your life right now?
I think its all settled.

Are you close to your mother?
No.

Are you one of those girls who already have baby names picked out?
Nope not really! I just like particular names.

Do you know someone who’s a stripper?
LOL NO.

Do you think guys with long hair are attractive?
No I think its ew.

Who’s the last person you heard swear?
My sister HAHAHA. It was interesting :-)

Are any of your siblings taller than you?
NOOOO.

Who’s the last person that you smiled at?
I have no idea.

Do you think anyone hates you?
Definitely.

Can you open up to others easily?
On the surface level.

Is anyone angry with you at the moment?
I have no idea.

Do you believe in giving second chances?
Yes. Of course. But it really depends on the situation.

When was the last time you wore high heels?
Very long time ago. HEHE.

When was the last time you were extremely upset?
Just nowwww.

Have you graduated high school yet?
Nope!

When you say you love someone, do you mean it?
Yes, even if its to the smallest extent.

Are guys really so hard to trust?
I don't know.

Okay. I shall not talk about what happened today, it was a rather depressing day. Instead I have already related it to my sister earlier today. So I will get ready to sleep. I did no work today.
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Hello friendies!

I kept falling asleep all over the place in during lessons today, I was really really tired :-( I should sleep earlier tonight but well we just do not have enough hours in a day :-( Fell asleep after SS, was going to die during A Math, rested my head on the table/Carol bear during Chinese. Well well well. :-( I am so disappointed with myself HAHAHA. For constantly feeling like sleeping in class but oh well.

Today, we received our SS papers. I can't be bothered about SS, truthfully, but it really pulled my Lit down so so badly :-( But whatever. I can't be that disappointed because I barely put in effort for SS. I just read through it once and sat for the exam. But well. It wasn't THAT bad (-:

Today on a whole was a sort of deadpan day. Our Tuesdays aren't that much exciting, we had Chem in the morning and Magsim showed us this extremely funny way of remembering the reactivity series. I think it goes "Please Send Calm Monkeys And Zebras For Timothy Lee's Hidden Collection Most Sincerely Goldilocks" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAHAHA I think its easier to remember the reactivity series itself. After Chem, we had SS, okay.

I slept during class time, whoops. Had recess with Jiayi and Megxie as usual heh :-) A Math, omg R factor. Then we had Lit! Lit was interesting. We did a poem and Mrs Choo told stories. Also, Mrs Choo told me since she thinks I can "pull it off" to tell the next subject teacher that comes in "Good afternoon _________, you look disturbing today!" I told her to keep that on hold until tomorrow HAHAHAHA. Chinese, was sleepy. E Math, Mrs Tee distributed stacks of past year exam papers, eeeeks, and we did similarity (like in triangles).

After school, I could come home early yay :-) So today, I had a really productive afternoon + evening + night. I did
1. Notes for outbreak of Cold War from Ms Koh's slides
2. Allied Conferences: Atlantic charter and Cairo conference
3. QA + Kinetic Particle Theory + Purification & Separation
4. Cells

AND YAY I hope the rest of my revision goes at this rate. That would be good :-) And I shall heed my sister's advice, as always. Screw you and your over-the-top expectations. So I'm not good enough, okay sure.

I should sleep soon :-)
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Hello friends!

Due to my uncanny laziness, I will blog in points again today and maybe pick out some points to elaborate on :-) We shall see.

1. Survived on 5 hours of sleep, got to school by 640 this morning
2. Started rushing out copying my zhoujis, and spent the rest of the morning going to find Mrs Lau + walking around with Nicole and Stace
3. The day started with chapel.
4. Then we had lit in class, and we received our Lit papers.
5. We then had english in the computer lab, and I spent those 3 periods on the internet and doing oral practice (ew okay sexual connotation not intended)
6. Recess :-)
7. Double Math, received our E Math papers and other than that, I finished copying my zhouji and doing most of my corrections, whilst trying to grasp what R factor thing Mrs Tee was trying to explain.
8. History was d i s a p p o i n t i n g. Received our papers as well and I know I could have done better.
9. Physics, received our papers, 3I doesn't care to keep too silent during physics. It was alright.
10. Chinese, got back our papers too, and I couldn't expect anything more.
11. Proceeded to Sogurt to meet Liz with Stace and Nicole
12. After Nicole left, we went to Burger shack for some really good fries, and even better talking session
13. Bus-ed home with Lizzie :')
14. Did my ICT, read through Metals and finished (sort of) my A Math homework.
15. I wanted to do my Chinese homework. However, I could not find my textbook I AM SORRY LAOSHI I REALLY WANTED TO DO IT HAHAHAHA.
16. I am convinced my sister is the sweetest most thoughtful person I have ever met :') ♡ I LOVE YOU.

Let's start elaborating on the important stuff
(Disclaimer: selectively read points if you do not want to read about me talking about my test results hehe kthxbai leggo)
3: During Chapel, I was in the PA room with 2 sec 2 juniors and Mrs Loh. I don't know where the rest of my comm was ngeh :'( Mrs Loh was the only company I had through the entire duration of chapel she randomly talked to me uhuh okay. HAHAHAHA awkward. I do not wish to help out in commendations kthxbai

4: I was rather proud of my Lit paper :-) 19/25, highest I have ever gotten for lit EVER in my 3 years of Secondary school. Even though it got quite awkward at some point, Mrs Choo read out bits of my essay. Nonetheless, I am extremely happy because I studied a grand total of 3 hours of Lit this term. I requested for a third sticker BECAUSE I WUNCH STICKERS NGGGAHHHH HAHAHAHA

7: E Math was satisfactory, but I really could have done much better. This term I got a 85% for E Math and 94% of A Math which is amazing because I didn't understand A Math more than half of the term HAHAHA.

8: History :'( I didn't fail, but I didn't do very well. Ms Koh said that she was rather disappointed as well because I appear to do well and understand well during lessons. Oh well. I hope it only goes up from here. Other than our papers, Ms Koh also went through other SEQ questions. Poor Sec 4 elect history girls. Poor-ER Sec 4-to-be pure history girls :-(

9: My physics paper was plain disappointing, but seeing that my class test was really good, I managed to scrape an 88.3% for physics. I am very proud of this acheivement as I have NEVER gotten anything above a barely-there-A1 for physics. Otherwise, all the 2I girls are all very happy with this term's content, thanks to Mr Lim and his amazeballs foundation.

10: Chinese. I am so. so. so. Screwed for O levels, I am actually very scared but I have pushed the fear to the back of my head, as Chinese takes the back seat to EVERY single one of my subjects, and I should have taken chinese more seriously. I lost all my marks in my epicfail of a summary, so I guess I will not fret too much because summary will only come out in the higher paper. Otherwise, 24/44, I would not have expected any better. I need to put in more effort, but somehow I just cannot do that for chinese.

11, 12, 13: This afternoon was generally well spent, with people I love, and it was good seeing Liz after such a long time. Sogurt tasted so so so good after having lived without it for a rather prolonged period of time. Burger shack fries are so so so good. :') And talking to the bffls was even better. I love you guys

16: My sister is THE best. ♡

I hope tomorrow will be a good day, I really need to study for my EOYs, and thus if I don't post too much here, I will be studying away :-) I need to do well, I need to so so bad.
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Hello friends

I will blog in lists today because I feel like doing so.

1. My cousin and I woke up by alarm at 9AM this morning. I think the aircon was turned on too low because I woke up freezing.
2. We had breakfast (small little steamed cakes + milo/hot chocolate) over MTV.
3. We decided to bake
4. We walked to the wet market/little market square thing my ahma frequents and I used to go very often when I was young, before I went to school.
5. We walked around for a good hour or so, and walked around the entire market square. It was nice.
6. We came back home with brownies premix and eggs and bread (my cousin's lunch) and cute little random snacks.
7. We ate said snacks and baked brownies for the next hour.
8. I had my korean cup noodles for lunch and my cousin had her bread for lunch after we were done baking. Our brownies turned out quite well, I think it was because we used premix. You see neither of us are domestically inclined HEH.
9. We had our lunch and some of our brownies over Masterchef Australia were we marveled over the wonderful looking food and their ability to cook so well (and as for me, CALLUM hehe he's such a hot chef)
10. We watched a bit more tv and my cousin left, her friend came by to pick her up to go to MBS to meet up with her primary school friends.
11. I proceeded to do my Chinese elearning quiz (which I fared terribly in HAHA because I failed my zong he tian kongs rather badly)
12. Then I did my Chem quiz. I was very angsty during that quiz because I could never find the options with my answer and just put the one that was closest to it. Also because the video refused to load until after like 10 minutes of buffering. Stupid elearning.
13. I watched Uptown Girls, the one with Brittany Murphy and Dakota Fanning. I thought it was very nice. It was a very very sweet show and Brittany Murphy was very pretty.
14. I attempted to read
15. Actually, I fell asleep for the next hour.
16. I woke up with a major headache, and went to my ahma's for dinner.
17. Then I came home and did some math ace learning stuff and the ppt for worship tomorrow, thank goodness Kathleen dearest reminded me.

Hello friends!

Commons are over, and I am back! MG has declared the next two days off, as elearning days, so I find sleeping early today extremely unpurposeful, as my happiness and rest is entirely short-lived, stretching over today, tomorrow, and the weekends. And then I find myself back to being stuck in the vicious cycle of preparing for the End of years, and subsequently moving on to sec 4 - a fact that I do not wish to dwell upon just yet. But yes, it has seemed that common tests have dragged on for entirely too long.

But now they are over and I am only afraid of my results.
A Math was alright, Chem was surprisingly good, I definitely passed chinese according to laoshi, which is plain comforting, everyone in our class had passed our history commons and we are allowed to redo our ICT - and have it recounted.
I am afraid to be disappointed, but if I am I guess I would just have to get over it anyway, yes?

Term 3 has been insane in the sense that the moment we step back into school - fresh out of the June holidays, the rest of the SLs that have not been previously notified of our roles in RYC were all deployed immediately, and so began the tiring 5-week prep for RYC, that had been worth it anyway. And when all things seemed like it had came to a standstill a short period after RYC, seven of us were tasked to do National day, and that began another three week haul, that had been so fun yet so tiring. And when that was over, we were all sucked into the prospect of commons in 2 weeks'. I nearly died rushing through a term's worth of content in 2 weeks.

I helped my brother practice for his Chinese Oral tomorrow for PSLE by listening to him read Chinese. It was so amusing HAHAHA. He emphasised on every single word. I wonder if I sounded like that during my Os Oral.

Term 3 has taught me a lot of things. (I feel like I'm in such a reflective mood because I haven't blogged properly for a while):
Recently, it has taught me - or rather, my sister has - that many people are going to say many things. And it is up to ourselves to judge whether they are right or wrong - to have something to learn out of it. It has taught me not to let what others' say get to me, and instead to get something out of it.
It has taught me that I need to be more sure of my worth. Time and time again I find my worth being brought down by others, only to be brought up again, and then crushed. I guess I really shouldn't base my worth on what others think of me and how they treat me, because I guess in the long run, pleasing people won't count.
Through all that has happened this term, I am assured of who are the people that will truly stick with me through everything. I'm not one who is able to preserve all my relationships, but the ones that count, I will never be able to let go of. Thank you. For helping me through everything and for really being there for me. I'm sure you know who you are but I can never thank you enough.

On a lighter and a most definitely higher note, tomorrow, I am going to Reenah's house with the bffls, (and then going for tuition but that isn't exactly worth looking forward to) and then I'm going to meet my cousin for dinner at ION tomorrow :-) It will be a good day.
I shall ignore the literal mountains of elearning work that we have been assigned by our way-too intense teachers hahaha. I will do that on Friday or something, but for the time being I really cannot be bothered hehehe

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Hello friends!

So today we had our Chem + History (for me, but in general it was our full humanities) papers, and our dear test setters did us the pleasure of massacring us with the difficulty aaAaaAaaAAAhh. Chem was as hard as I expected it to be, which WAS HARD. Hahaha though Reenah, Nicole & I had ABS training with Mrs Lau this morning, thanks for the help ♡ :') But yes I shall not think about it, I WILL NOT THINK ABOUT IT. omg y i so stupid, polybasic dibasic AH WHAT IS DAT HAHAHA.

Omg please I hope this paper goes well this is chem if I can't do chem its as good as failing the rest AAAH HAHAHA.

History, we had part (a) of our SEQ on the reasons for the outbreak of the War in Europe in 1939, which was manageable because well, it was very easy to memorise and study for. However, part (b) was on the reasons for the Japanese expansion into Manchuria, and so my links for part (b) were giant question marks omg. I really hope I do well for this to pull my ICT up.

Gg I think I'm not going to do very well this time round for term 3. I need my EOYs to help me to buck up my average omg please save me.

So I just did Chapters 1-3 for Chrysalids, and one intense hour staring at Physics notes. Wowwwww. I have decided to slack for a bit hehehehe. As if I didn't slack enough this afternoon, I read Thirteen Reasons Why + Watched Glee and like five minutes of America's Got Talent. I really do miss my TV HAHAHA. And also, spent the afternoon whatsapping my sister whom I love very very dearly (':


I shall do more physics now :-)
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Hello.

Its the day before A Math and SS, and I don't know why I'm here, blogging, when I'm supposed to be on acelearning doing last minute crash courses. I couldn't resist but to blog the line below.

I am dying. I am simply dying.

"When sadness was an ocean, you taught me how to swim."

I never thought that I'd have the time to blog, at least until the exams are over in about two weeks time, but here I am, comforted by the fact the Nicolette provided me - Allied Conferences aren't tested for History. So, because I have an entire less handout to memorize, I figured I can squeeze out half an hour or so to blog, before I am sucked in by my life again - National day slides to do, final loose ends to tighten, and all my subjects' contents.

Lately, life has fallen into familiar & comfortable, albeit tiring and draining, cycle. I wake up in the morning, go through the day's classes - some of which in unrivaled enthusiasm and interest, others just help me aid in my catching up on lost sleep - groan at how they're piling up on the homework. But I can never entirely hate lessons, sitting next to Keren, who is one of nicest and sweetest and most amusing girls I've ever met, to having recess with the BFFLs, and going insane sometimes, or just sitting in class and talking.

Then comes the second part of the day, staying back in school for all sorts of various reasons, and of late, for National Day. I can't say that I'm the most patriotic person, and I can't say that this task given to me, to head the planning committee, has drained me of a lot of time and energy, but yet at the same time, I love doing this, I love being busy and preoccupied, and on top of all of that, I love the people that I have spent so many afternoons with the past three weeks after school. Tessa, Bev, Berenice, Kristin, Lisa. You guys are the most amazing people to work with, from WALKING INTO THE HALL LIKABOSS, to laughing at MLGIs, to stressing over deadlines, complaining and whining about how hungry and cold we are like full-fledged hobos, running all over school and having countless meetings outside the staffroom in the morning, and just laughing a lot sometimes. You guys, I know we're going to do such a good job on Monday. And I can't ask for better people to spend my afternoons with.

When I get home, I face my pile of things to do, things to be accomplished, work to be done, things to memorise. Sometimes it gets me down, but I think I have learnt to take heart, to know that this too shall pass and I am studying for God, and because I need to and I want to. So I spend my evening and night with my books and notes, primarily. Also, I can never live without my daily conversations with my sister about anything under the sun, how I can complain to her about school and talk about the most random things, and how you always always never fail to cheer me up. All I can say is thank you for being here, and I love you to bits.

And when my eyes are wide open from the time of the night, but my head is heavy and I can't think straight, I know it is time to sleep. Usually, this is at about 12.30. And all I can do is end the day with God and hope that 5 hours is enough to get me through.

So that's been life for the past 3 weeks or so :-) Again, comfortable, familiar, routine. But tiring, exhausting and life-sucking.

Everything comes down to Monday. National Day concert. I hope everyone's looking forward to it because I sure am, and its going to be really fun :-) 3 weeks of hard work, stress, slides, rehearsals, proposal deadlines, minutes, all to those two hours. Also, SL meeting right after celebrations. :-)

Its been a busy term - but it flew by and before we know it, we're going to be Sec 4, and that thought simply scares me. I don't think I want to be Sec 4. I don't think I can take O Levels next year. But until then, like my sister always says, take it a thing at a time. She's never wrong about such things.

To be in the company of such beautiful girls, you all are wonderful :-)


Also, I must really get myself a polaroid camera.

"If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking."
With that, I commit the next two weeks to God. Exams are coming up, and the project we've been working so hard on is on Monday, and I guess all we can do is to give it our best, and leave the rest to God, yes? :-) I believe so, and the next two weeks is His.

Till commons are over, and I'm back again. This feels really nice :-) Back to my slides.
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