“I always feel like I’m struggling to become someone else. Like I’m trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it’s part of growing up, yet it’s also an attempt to reinvent myself. By becoming a different me, I could free myself of everything. I seriously believed I could escape myself- as long as I made the effort. But I always hit a dead end. No matter where I go, I still end up me. What’s missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I’m still the same old incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I guess that lack itself is as close as I’ll come to define myself. For your sake, I’d like to become a new person. It may not be easy, but if I give it my best shot, perhaps I can manage to change. The truth is, though, if put in the same situation again, I might very well do the same thing all over. I might very well hurt you all over again. I can’t promise anything. That’s what I meant when I said I had no right. I just don’t have the confidence to win over that force in me.”SLC Day 3! Today was bloody intense and we had lots and lots of meetings, so yeah we had our daily morning briefing of the day's activities, then we had a Youth Assembly Meeting. YAJ! We got more budget, after re-presenting our action paper after all the edits that we did. So yeah hahaha went down late for lunch so lunch was zilch thingies so ate lots of leftovers. A second youth assembly meeting to confirm the passing of our action papers, and then we had a nice tea break, followed by a youth community meeting to listen to the other youth communities' action papers and decide on which action paper we would like to represent the youth community or something hahaha. Was the scribe so I was awake for two out of the three meetings. During the second youth assembly meeting, I nearly fell asleep and fell out of my chair, face forward lulz.
— Haruki Murakami
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